Saturday, June 5, 2010

"One Cubic Centimetre Cures Ten Gloomy Sentiments"

When I first read Aldous Huxley's Brave New World, I had recently read 1984 and I was curious about the drastic differences between Huxley's and Orwell's visions of the future. 1984 focuses on the soul-crushing dangers of totalitarian government. Brave New World takes the future in a different direction, instead focusing on the dangers of science and consumerism. At the heart of this futuristic society is a drug called soma. It is "euphoric, narcotic, pleasantly hallucinant." In essence, it is the perfect, side effect free drug.

Huxley published Brave New World in 1932. Twenty-two years later, in 1954, he published The Doors of Perception, a work describing his experience with the drug mescaline. I had always wondered what inspired the drastically different approaches to the future taken by Huxley and Orwell. I knew that 1984 was inspired by the political climate in which Orwell lived, but reading The Doors of Perception finally gave me some insight into the creation of Huxley's future. In his tradition of borrowing his titles from other works (Brave New World took its title from Shakespeare's The Tempest), this work's title (which inspired a certain 1960's band) came from a poem by William Blake:
If the doors of perception were cleansed every thing would appear to man as it is, infinite.
But the book is more than a celebration of drug use. It explores many issues, including mental illness and religion, among other things. And when I read it, aspects of Brave New World made so much more sense. People who are familiar with Brave New World might recall the community sings. These sessions were designed to reinforce class solidarity through the use of soma and orgies. In The Doors of Perception, Huxley discusses the role of peyote (which is essentially mescaline) in Native American religious rituals. His belief was that one of the reasons religion seemed to be falling by the wayside was that most people could not achieve truly transcendental religious experiences. This is partially because modern religion frowns upon the use of intoxicating substances (with the exception of a tolerance of alcohol). As not everyone can realize religious transcendence through ritual, he believed that the creation and use of an intoxicating substance with no ill after affects would bring religion into the present and bring people back to religion.

Now, he wrote this belief after Brave New World. One is led to believe in that book that the boundless use of soma is one of the evils of that future. And yet, years later, Huxley advocated almost exactly the same thing in The Doors of Perception. So, had the actual use of drugs changed his mind, or was the point of the earlier book that the use of soma had gone to far, to the point of swallowing up a healthy life? I would like to believe it was the later, moderation in all things. Yet I cannot help but find it interesting that underneath the hellish reality of his dystopian future, just barely beneath the surface, lies a future he might actually have wished for. Which I suppose underlines the truth: our idealistic views of what life could be tend to be corrupted in the making, unless we are very careful.

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

Young Americans Embrace Rigors of the Bolshoi

This really fascinating article about two Americans, 15-yr old Joy from Texas and 12-yr old Julian from Montana, who are studying ballet at the Bolshoi Academy in Moscow was in the New York Times this morning. Read it here. There's also a slide show and a video (and in the latter, there were lots of Moscow landmarks that I've seen in person :)

Now which is more likely to happen: Ten Page returns to Russia or Ten Page becomes a ballet dancer (again)?

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Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Milestones

April 11: attended final concert of retiring music professor
April 23: visited with friends who are having a baby
April 26: had lunch with history prof who is going on leave
April 27: went to a job fair
April 30-May 11: did work for retiring education professor
May 8: went to friend's birthday party
May 11: went to former boss' retirement party
May 15: went to a graduation party
May 16: went to a college graduation
May 17: went to a farewell dinner for high school seniors at church
May 18: got my teaching certification
.............registered for yet another French class
May 19: went to a funeral
May 22: went to a wedding and a going-away party
May 27: screening interview for teaching jobs
June 12: went to an ordination
June 15: my birthday

I guess it's silly to ask that the life changes be slowed some. Ten Page doesn't like change (and has never liked it), but I guess she's going to become more accepting of it...

Sunday, May 16, 2010

Man of Faith vs...Man of Faith?

In honor of the pending series finale of Lost, I am hijacking this blog to discuss Lost.

I've been re-watching the first two seasons, back when Locke was still the man of faith and Jack was all about getting off the Island. In the current season, Locke (aka the Man in Black) is all about getting off the Island, and Jack has become the man of faith. But faith seems to mean two different things to these men.

Before he came to the Island, Locke was a very angry person. He had good reason to be. His relationship with his con-man father began on an off-note and degraded to the point where he pushed Locke out a window. All of that could easily conspire to make a man bitter. But when he got the Island, things changed. Or did they? He could walk, he was respected as a hunter and protector. He found faith in the power of the Island. But it didn't really make him less angry. When his trebuchet failed to open the hatch, he became angry. When Boone became injured, he found himself pounding angrily on the hatch. When Desmond abandoned the hatch after destroying the computer, Locke yells at the Island again. Each time, he complains that this wasn't what was supposed to happen. Faith shouldn't bring you anger. It should bring you peace.

Enter season five Jack. He has survived detonating a hydrogen bomb and discovered that he is a candidate for some mysterious purpose. Like Locke in the early seasons, he now does not want to leave the Island. He has faith that he has a purpose. And it has created a marked change since the beginning of the season. Jack was angry at the Temple (though he could have simply been having a negative reaction to the weak plot point). When he found Jacob's magic mirror, his mirror smashing tantrum was impressive. But after he recovered from the experience, he had made a profound mental shift, to the point of telling Hurley that he is not longer going to be in charge, making decisions. He is going to let go and follow.

To me, Jack's faith exemplifies the Taoist concept of wu-wei, essentially, go with the flow. Whatever life throws at you, role with it and trust things to go how they should. It has the imagery of floating comfortably down a river rather than fighting the current. And since his mental shift, that's what he does. Richard Alpert tries to blow himself up, Jack calmly sits down with him, secure in the belief that he cannot die. Even when Locke tries to blow everyone up on the sub, Jack remains calm (well, as calm as possible). Locke had faith, but he also had expectations. And when they weren't met, he fought tooth and nail. Jack has no expectations. He is willing to see how the game plays out without any preconceived notions about the endgame.

I suspect that this is the same sort of peace that we see with Desmond in sideways world and that we saw on his face when he woke back up on the Island. I personally cannot wait to see what happens when are newly peaceful Jack and Desmond meet each other. It should be quite different than when they met in the hatch all those years ago.

Well, that's all my wisdom. Thank you for joining me on this Lost-inspired trek.

Sunday, April 25, 2010

A Trip Down Nostalgia Lane

NB: The subject matter of this post was in no way approved by my co-blogger. I would like to make it absolutely clear that she DOES NOT like the Doors, and no assumptions are to be made about her feelings relative to the content of this post :)

Frazz
(click on the strip for a larger image)

My love of the Doors in general and Jim Morrison in particular have become well known to my friends, particularly those who have watched the Doors perform on Ed Sullivan with me. Thus, one of said friends e-mailed me the above comic strip. Naturally, the strip is only funny if you agree that the idea of a 25-year-old hamster is as ridiculous as the idea of Jim Morrison living to be 66. Anyway, receiving this comic strip has inspired me to actually finish and post a blog entry I began over winter vacation.

Because I am a true music nerd, I was ecstatic to receive a record player for Christmas. For those of you who don’t know, records, also known as vinyl, LPs, 45s, etc. are those shiny black disks that you’ve probably seen in your parents’ attic or, depending on your age, have in your own attic.

Not really having much in the way of my own vinyl collection (a.k.a. I only owned one album), I naturally needed to borrow music from my parents for testing out on my latest toy. This meant not only exploring the records my parents had out, but dragging out boxes (and I mean drag; those suckers are heavy!) from storage and the garage.

The first things I played were selections from their classical collection, because that’s mostly what they’ve kept out over the years. And really, short of hearing it live, there’s nothing like listening to good classical music on LP. And it wasn’t just about the music. I got to hear my mother talk about how an ex-boyfriend of hers who played trombone introduced her to Janáček’s Symphonieta because of its excellent use of brass. I also got to see how much she loves listening to Tchaikovsky’s Romeo and Juliet Overture, which led to a discussion about Tchaikovsky’s amazing ability to tell stories with music. Of course, all of this led to the excavation of the other boxes.

In one of these boxes was my father’s collection of classic pop and rock. I wouldn’t have expected to see him with more records by Elton John and Chicago than The Beatles. And "Black Dog" and "Stairway to Heaven" are even more glorious on vinyl. But the group I have become sincerely attached to since then is the Doors. (And it’s not because of Morrison’s leather pants. Honest.)

I’d never thought myself to be particularly familiar with the music of The Doors, but there isn’t much classic rock that I don’t enjoy at least a little. Well, while my family chilled at home on Christmas, we watched a DVD of classic performances from the Ed Sullivan Show, which included The Doors performing “Light My Fire.” It was one of those songs I’d always heard, but never knew (or thought about) who sang it. And it kind of got stuck in my head. So, when I found that my dad had an album with that on it, I listened to it. And it is much longer than the version they performed for Ed, and has some fantastic instrumental solos.

Well, it’s more difficult to listen to single tracks on LPs, and I always like discovering new good music, so after listening to the first side (which conveniently opened with the 7 minute long “Light My Fire”) quite a few times, I finally flipped over the record, not expecting to hear anything I knew. But as soon as the first song, “Touch Me,” started, I knew what it was. It was one of those songs I’d always heard on classic rock radio that my dad listened to when I was younger. I always knew it as the Stronger Than Dirt song because whenever it came on the radio, my dad would crank the volume up so that we could hear what Morrison was singing at the end.

As I listened to it, I wished that I’d actually listened to more classic rock regularly when I was younger. I couldn’t help but think about listening to the Backstreet Boys during some of my formative years of adolescent growth and hormones. One could say that the Backstreet Boys were better. None of them were known for being alcoholics or hardcore drug-users (so far as I know, anyway). But none of them were Jim Morrison, either (or John Lennon, or Mick Jagger, or Gary Puckett, for that matter). I can’t help but think if I was a hormonal teenager in the late ‘60s lying on the floor of my bedroom listening to Jim Morrison sing "Touch Me" or "Wishful Sinful," I probably would have melted straight through the floor. Let’s face it, they don’t make music like they used to. And can any group today make hordes of pre-teen girls scream and faint quite like The Beatles (and, apparently, the Rolling Stones) could? No way.

This is not to say that modern music has nothing going for it. That would be a lie. I have my fair share of good music that has come out in the time I have been alive. But I think that my generation, the Starbucks, iPod, instant gratification generation, has come to expect different things from our music. I’m not sure quite what they expect, but I think that the revolutionary sounds of groups like The Beatles and The Doors are no longer new. But because of things they did, there’s very little new that modern groups are doing. Weezer has the Red Album, the Blue Album, and the Green Album. The Beatles had the White Album. Except it actually had a title. The Beatles. But I understand why no one calls it that; we can’t speak in italics, after all. We’d end up sounding like a bad Abbot and Costello sketch (-I listened to The Beatles this afternoon. –Awesome! Which album? -The Beatles. –You said that, but which album? Who’s on first?).

My generation isn’t going to be shocked and possibly scandalized by listening to Sgt. Pepper’s Lonely Hearts Club Band (though "Being for the Benefit of Mr. Kite" still sounds trippy), and no one is going to think twice about hip swiveling on TV (in the Ed Sullivan performance we watched, Elvis was filmed from the waist up, but the screams from the audience gave some indication of what we weren’t seeing). They may have been completely trashed all the time or have been having lots of sex with women they weren’t married to, but, come on, after Tom Cruise couch-jumped and Lindsay Lohan went into rehab for the ump-teenth time, who really cares? I’m sure some of the greats of early rock had onstage antics to match Janet Jackson’s “wardrobe malfunction” at the Super Bowl (Jim Morrison and the Miami Incident, anyone? He was arrested! Multiple times!), but then as now, those things seldom stop people from following artists that they like.

And I had all of these deep and obviously profound thoughts because of getting a record player for Christmas. Betcha can’t get all of that from a new Blu-ray player. So now, if you’ll excuse me, I’m going to go listen to Jim Morrison and melt.

620 Books

I'm an academic. I read for fun. Don't judge me.

So says my Facebook profile. At various points in my life, people have belittled me (with varying degrees of seriousness) for the fact that I read a lot. I don't really care anymore. I like to read, it is a stress reliever for me, and I would love to be able to call myself "well read" (although being well read is a full time job in and of itself).

So I was just looking at my refrigerator, and the green index card that's at the top of it caught my eye. It reads 620 books. The backstory is that nearly four years ago, I was having a hellish fall semester as a college sophomore. At fall break, I went home, and I was telling the story of all my assignments to a friend from church. This friend has a son who is a Ph.D student in history at Emory University, and at the time, his son was preparing for his Ph.D comps. My friend told me that his son had a list of 620 books that he had to know for his exams. So I went back to school, wrote "620 books" on a green index card, and posted it on my desk (where it remained for the next 2.5 years) as a reminder of how my workload could be worse.

So as I gazed upon this green index card this evening, I thought, "I haven't even read 620 books in my entire life." I know I've only read about 380 since I've been keeping a reading log (roughly 2000), not including required school reading.

Pope Benedict owns 20,000 books. I'm sure he's read most, if not all, of them.

I guess I have some work to do.

Friday, April 23, 2010

A Week in the Life of Ten Page

So I was talking with my Ed Block friends yesterday, and one of them, upon hearing about what I had been doing and reading my Facebook statuses, suggested that I start a blog. I told her I already had one, and she remembered seeing this on Facebook and then suggested that I put a list of what I do in a day on said blog. And I thought, "why the heck not."

This week, my to-do list had 34 items on it, even though I don't have a job at the moment. My rallying cry all week has been, "Who has time for a job?!?" So here's the recap:

Monday
-Mass at Sacred Heart with Alyssa and Jen
-stop by History Prof's office to pick up stuff for this week's Phi Alpha Theta induction, which I was in charge of planning along with one of the other alumni officers.
-stop in Education Prof's office to set a time for a meeting that had already been rescheduled twice.
-type up recollections from Open House presentation for aforementioned Education Prof
-give update to other Education dept Chair on how I went about getting my teaching certification
-wash windows
-Finish reading The Chocolate War (absolutely read this book!)
-hike over to campus to meet with Lydia and History Prof to plan induction
-run into Jen, Mandy, English Prof, other History Prof
-call supervising teacher to get latest on KCPS consolidation
-meeting with Education Prof to discuss conference presentation
-dinner
-send several job-related emails and completed one application
-call Brenna
-Bible Study at Mandy's

Tuesday
-Mass at Sacred Heart
-chat with Krista while we both wait for Education dept Chair, then we both meet with her
-visit former bosses in Writing Center
-call Caroline County HR
-20 mile bike ride
-read articles on field trips for conference presentation
-reading briefly and gladly interrupted by dinner and quick errand with Education dept Chair

Wednesday
-Communion Service at Our Mother of Sorrows
-prepare important gift
-H & R Block end of season survey
-online application for my teaching certificate
-finish draft of conference presentation
-empty dishwasher, do dishes
-drop papers for credential file off at career center
-shop for drinks and paper products for Phi Alpha Theta induction
-drop off drinks and plates etc off with History Prof
-chat with Education Prof
-play phone tag with Steve
-CCF end of year picnic
-Sacred Heart spaghetti dinner

Thursday
-Mass at Sacred Heart
-walk over to Acme and buy Kent News. Read Kent News
-15 mile bike ride
-pack for home
-group meeting to work on conference presentations
-Phi Alpha Theta induction
-go home to Western Shore

Friday
-Teachers of Promise Institute in Baltimore
-dinner with lovely WaC friends who now live in Western Shore neighborhood (kinda)

What does next week look like?
-field trip to DC
-finish The Romance of the Rose
-work on conference presentation
-follow up on some job applications
-lunch with Lydia and History Prof
-ODK induction?
-Conference on Saturday, 5/1
-townball on Thurs?
-Bible Study on Mon & Tues (need to plan Tuesday, since I'm probably going to lead the discussion)
-acutally get my teaching certificate and finish assignment from Education dept Chair?

Yeah...who has time for a job?